Little Adjustments

It has been one helluva crazy year.

One year ago this week, I was laid off, sold or got rid of half of my belongings, packed up the rest and headed back home to the SL,UT.

Five months ago, I had to deal with the death of my nephew Walter (Click to see post. Also, here.) (Still miss the hell out of you Walt.)

In fact the entire month of June was a nightmare.

Two months ago, I finally made the decision to divorce my husband of 18 years. And have since dealt with all that goes along with that, to include him getting a girlfriend within two weeks of him moving out and my daughters meeting said girlfriend a few weeks later. That’s fun! I do not fool myself that this little adventure is over, but day-by-day it gets easier.

The entire year of dealing with my Dad’s continuing poor health.

Me starting college again. Full time, no less.

So many changes in such a short amount of time. I’ve had ups and downs in dealing with it all, but thank God, mostly ups. I feel like I’ve weathered the worst of it and can handle whatever comes my way. I may breakdown at times, but I am damn good about picking myself back up and moving on. It takes little adjustments. In the way I see things. In the way I chose to feel about things. In the way I chose to let it affect me.

On this day before Thanksgiving…I am so profoundly thankful for everything that is good in my life. And there is a lot.

For my beautiful daughters, who have obviously inherited some strength. I know this year has been just as hard, if not worse for them, but they have been resilient. With each new hurdle, they amaze me and help build my strength.

For my wonderful friends, both old and new, who are continually there for me, especially when I have those rare down days. The ones who check in on me occasionally to make sure I am doing okay. The ones who listen to me vent, without judgement or unnecessary advice, just support.

For the one I communicate with almost every day, who has helped me remember something I thought I could never believe in again. You always make me smile.

For my family, who no matter what, has always been there for me. Will always be here for me. Who love me no matter what, even when I am being the bratty little sister.

I am thankful to you all. You might not all be in my life forever, but you are here now. When I need you the most. I can only hope that I can touch your lives even half as much as you have touched mine.

Thank you a million times over.