Worn out!

I really screwed myself this week. I don’t know what I was thinking, actually I obviously was NOT thinking, when I told a co-worker at the scrapbook store that I would take her shift friday night because it was her anniversary. First of all, I broke my last promise of not taking other peoples shift for any reason, because NO ONE has EVER taken a shift for me the very few times I have asked. And I had damn good reasons for needing to switch. I have only tried 3 times since I started there five months ago, like for a funeral! So the girl that has declined me all 3 times calls and I just can’t say no. What the hell is wrong with me. I can be a bitch in so many other ways, but it is hard for me in these types of situations, because I have NEVER said no the many times others have asked me to take shifts. Maybe I have been crazy to think that if I help them out, they may help me out some time. I now know this is not the case, but I still did it????

So starting last Monday, I worked my “real” full-time job all week, plus worked the scrap store Thu. night, Fri. night, Sat. day and will work again tonight, which puts me right back into my regular week at my “real” job, adding to that working one evening this week at the scrap store and Sat night again! F*#K! I may go insane.

I will give you a minute now to grab some tissue and wipes the tears from your face and allow the steady stream of cussing to subside from your lips as you empathize with me…

OK, back to reality. I can actually handle all this for the short time and it wouldn’t be so bad at all if Blain and the kids weren’t so pissed about it all. But, I do need to change a few things or I am going to literally wear myself out and alienate my family. I need to make a decision. First, I will find out if I can cut my hours at the scrap store even further to just a few days a month, if not I will have to quit *gasp!* It’s a conundrum!