Pills

So you may (or may not, but I’m going to tell you anyway) be wondering about the anti-anxiety pills I was prescribed and have they been working? I was kind of wondering that myself and so was Blain. I think it was a gradual change, so gradual that it was almost imperceptable (is that the right word?). I think I could feel the change more than Blain could see it. I have been dealing with some pretty heavy shit for the past few months with lots of pressures with realtive ease.

I have been off my medication for 4 days now. The drug I was prescribed was Lexapro. There is no generic version and a 30 day supply costs right around $95. Ridiculous, I know, right?! It sucks not to have health insurnace is all I have to say.

Initially, I could feel no difference, probably due to the fact that some of the drug was still in my system. However, today I feel a huge difference. I am feeling VERY anxious today and it hit me like a ton of bricks. I am having a VERY hard time concentrating on any one task and the multitude of tasks that are necessary to be done today are just too overwhelming. My left eye keeps twitching, which leads me to believe that the stress of the anxiety is getting to me.

I don’t really know what compelled me to write about this today. I think it is helping just to get it out there and off my shoulders for a minute.

No worries my peeps…this too shall pass.