Lessor of two evils

Today is officially my 5th day as a non-smoker. I messed up a few times, but for the most part, I am doing pretty damn good. I find that I miss it most in the morning while drinking my coffee, after meals and when I get stressed out. So, I have pretty much stopped drinking coffee. I considered not eating, but my tummy doesn’t agree with that one, so I suffer through the need for an after meal smoke. I still don’t know how to deal with the stress part. It would be easier if I could just lay in my bed with the ceiling fan cooling me from above above and watch TV and sleep all day. Damn work and kids won’t allow that though. Jerks!
I have been using the patch most of the time. I didn’t put one on yesterday and did good until the end of the day (had an oops at that point). I am back to wearing it today. Since Blain is still smoking on the back porch and can now totally smell how much the smokes actually gets in the house. I never noticed and now it really, really bugs me. He is going to have to go else where from now on! Its amazing how much you can’t smell when you are a smoker.
Last time I quit, I gained 60 pounds in 4 months! This is one of the reasons I have been putting off quitting again. I still need to lose 40 from the last time. This time I was smarter and planned for this. I did my weekly menu based on low fat meals and got lots of sugar free lollipops and life savers. So far I have actually lost 1 pound. The other change this time is that I am only drinking water and no sodas.
I have been very cranky off and on. My kids notice this the most. I asked if they would rather have me cranky for a few weeks or be a non-smoker. Crankiness won hands down!